The Mess I was In

So much of my effort and energy has been tied up chasing those 'dreams' that I believed I needed to feel good about myself.

How much time have I spent just running after some elusive piece of techno-latest-must-have-junk only to be so disappointed after a few days that it has been put on the shelf, or how about those big long 3 screen adverts that extol the virtues of this new-get-rich-now software that will have me earning thousands overnight from a website or two. Yep! I've been there and done that as well, I must have spent thousands to keep on feeling this lack in my life!!

What all of that has taught me is that "No matter how hard I look out there for success, abundance and prosperity, I can only be as prosperous, abundant and successful as I feel myself to be", in other words, the external is a manifestation of the internal, and it can be that simple.

The Path Well Trodden

I spent a long time in that world of lack and deep unhappiness, I started to see how my stuckness was beginning to have an effect on the people around me, how my lack was affecting them and I knew it was time for me to bring about some serious change in my life, but where to start!

Fortunately I had been trying different things for a while, one of which was re-birthing, that is using various breathing techniques to enable me to re-experience my birth trauma. Pretty drastic and pretty radical, pity it didn't work for me! What I was aware of through, was that the breath held an awesome power, but for some reason I wasn't quite getting there in the re-birthing sessions. By the way, I persisted with the re-0birthing for about three years, that show s how committed I was to making some change happen for me.

With the obvious failure of re-birthing for me, I set out to try other forms of breath related work and that is where I came across concious connected breathing and Lars.

Concious Connected Breathing (breathwork) has been a massive force for change in my life, I would almost say that it was my saviour, but that is not true, because it has been Me that has saved me!

Breathwork has allowed me to release a huge amount of emotional baggage that I had been carrying in my body for many years. On letting go of this emotional detritus I have been able to see, understand, embrace and finally start to love the places I always thought were painful and the people I had always thought were responsible for that pain.

After undergoing an intensive period of breathwork I asked Lars to tutor me into becoming a breathwork facilitator and it was this amazing Danish man who introduced me to my lack! What a gift! Lars introduced me to the 40 day course on abundance and prosperity that was created by the Quartus Foundation.

This simple course runs for forty days and quite simply helped me to see, understand and change the beliefs I had about abundance and prosperity in my life to something that fully opened me up to the full potential of my true nature. It was a perfect complement to the breathwork I was doing, and certainly brought much more happiness and joy into my life because it helped me to really change my self limiting ideas and beliefs that were also keeping me 'stuck'.

The course required me to write a short text each day and then bring the text inside and look at in for a few minutes and notice what 'things' , feelings, thoughts and images came up from 'looking' at the text in this way. I was truly surprised and delighted as my old unconscious, limiting beliefs were brought up into the light where it was possible to examine them with conciousness, mindfulness and clarity and so change positively these ideas so that they ceased to constrain my abundance and prosperity.

Sure it was tough keeping this going for 40 days, but it has been well worth it, so much so that I have done the course twice, both times with wonderful effect.